Trigger Warning

Trigger warning: happiness
Trigger warning: happiness
Trigger warning: happiness
Cause when you’re depressed

You crave it, like you crave pills
And alcohol, anything to numb the
Pain. Anything at all. You saw warnings
Before movies when you were nine,

Never in the frame of mind to understand
What it really meant, you’d never heard
The lament of brokenness, broken vases
In the porch and flower petals, you love

Me, you love me not, and empty flower
Pots because petals didn’t mean a god damn
Thing. Addiction when you were younger was
To video games and chocolate, if simplicity

Was boxed you would be a millionaire and
Air wouldn’t seem so toxic and hard to breathe,
You’ve got to breathe, no matter the consistency,
Air smelled like grass when you were five, that

Was the year your dog died and your parents
Cut your jokes in half with bad news, you never
Liked the news-all the bold print and trigger
Warnings. Barbie dolls were made from plastic

And you laughed when someone in the playground
Told you people were plastic, you didn’t realise
They understood life so much better, back then
Knives were handled by adults, now you’re an

Adult and somehow you don’t quite feel qualified,
Everything you knew were lies and how can you
Be sure you won’t cut yourself just because people
Say you can handle it, but you can’t handle happiness.

So you drown yourself in opiates and the air turns
To jelly and noises are like waves and you are six
Again, play pretending you’re not dead. One day
You’ll be dead and there’ll be a funeral and you
Won’t hear what’s said but I’ll tell you.
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